Interviewing people is weird. I’m getting resumes from people with way more retail experience than I have. …I haven’t figured out yet if that is good or bad.

I have to make sure I stay strong & confident, & not let someone try to come in & take over. I’m a little concerned about this, as my past is filled with examples of my failures with this.

But I feel stronger now.

I have been interviewing potential tenants & finally think I found one yesterday. He was ready to sign, but I didn’t bring the lease (after many showings that didn’t work out.) He is single retired veteran, who now spends his spare time working for Habitat for Humanity. That’s right- he fixes houses for fun. I’m excited, but trying not to be yet in case something falls through.

AND THEN THERE’S THE STORE. I have my very 1st interview today! I have no idea what I am doing, & just pray it doesn’t show lol. I’m looking to hire help as a 1099, as needed, for odd jobs around the store. I feel this is better starting out as I have no idea how I will afford it yet, & also figure if they don’t work out, it’s a matter of just not calling them the next time, instead of having to fire them & deal with a mess. Also, each time they come work will be like an interview to prove if I can trust leaving them to run the store down the road, as I’d like to find someone to open my store on Fridays.

If all goes well, I may be able to hire someone in time for this weekend – when we have our Halloween event & I haven’t gotten even *1* volunteer set up to help so far. (& 30 families signed up+ who knows how many coming who didn’t sign up.)

I could go on & on about my failed attempts to find people for both of these situations, but its not worth it. Once I find good fits, it won’t matter.


The New Window Phone. DON’T DO IT.

I’d have a lot more posts on here if it weren’t for spending hours typing up a post with my windows phone app, only for it to VANISH.  The new windows phone stinks. Yeah, the camera is better, BUT I can only upload *1* photo at a time, when it decides to upload at all, onto the Facebook page.

It does NOT support our credit card company, SQUARE, because windows wants you to use THEIR, very very expensive register app. Thankfully, I kept my old phone and use the wifi at the store. Their’s is like $30/mth PLUS 30c per transaction PLUS a % of sales. That is just  crazy. Square has no monthly fees and doesn’t charge for the readers, stickers, etc; there are no per transaction fees- just a smaller % of total fee.

Also, the Facebook Manager App that allows you to access your business pages is extremely limited. What is FREE/INCLUDED on my old phone, costs $$$ on the windows version.

You can not copy and paste like you can on an any android! That means if you type out a big message, & windows decides it doesn’t feel like sending at the moment, you can not copy it and try again. It is just GONE and you have to start over.

There were a few games I played on my Android phone for down time, when waiting for appts etc. But, they are NOT supported on the WINDOW PHONE. Some of them are attached to Facebook. So that is now gone too.

I could go on and on but I’m sure you get the point. It just isn’t living up to the HYPE when you can’t get anything you need or want to either work right OR for free like they are on other phones.


Todays ramblings

Well there is always a crazy amount to do.
September sales are down, store rent and house mortgage is due in October, & there’s credit cards to pay off.
The house still needs nearly as much work as it did a year ago. Winter is fast approaching, is supposed to be worse, & we barely made it through last year.
I need LOTS of insulation & plastic sheeting before winter!
My van is making scary noises & there’s no money to fix/replace it. I can’t even afford an oil change.
My phone (which is a major tool for my business) is all sorts of messed up and must be replaced by the 21st according to my cell provider.  That is more I dont have, not mention my plan price will go up because they were “bought by AT&T so the old towers are being shut down-causing the cell problems.”
I needed to LOWER my bill not be required to RAISE it. 😦

So I am looking at my options. I need to sit down and come up with new totals of all owed. And somehow how cut our costs even more.

I already do not use heat/air/lights when the kids aren’t home. I walk around in the dark freezing. I am going to take all my sewing equipment to the mall to use their utilities instead of ours here too soon. (Right now Im just not sewing so I dont use up utilities.)

We already do not have any “extras” at all– no cable, internet, etc. Although I do have internet on my phone to access my business page from home so I can reply to customers(& post these blog posts). THAT will most likely have to be completely DROPPED. $10 is $10. & I plan to go with my cheapest possible options.

And I am looking into renting out rooms again(my seeing & fabric rooms). It hasnt worked out before because people want a house that is totally remodeled AND has stuff like wifi & laundry if they have to pay rent-even if as little as $200/mth. Any less & I cant even cover their added utilities! (not that $200 will in the winter!) And what would I do if they move in & refuse to pay?? It could end up costing me MORE money.

So. Its going to take a lot of sit down & mapping.

Hello! (still kicking)

Well my world is a lonely place-constantly giving with no way to refill myself. I hold out hope that will change some day- that is what keeps me going.

My oldest son (19) has decided to enlist in the army. He apparently got very high on his military test  & has his pick of any active duty path he wants. Most likely whatever he choses be be highly classified & I wont have any idea where he is etc. Its scary.

I was offered a commercial shoot, advertising space in 1-2 movies, etc.   I was also offered an advertising spot for a county blog & facebook page.

The latter would cost $10 MORE, but both are reasonable.  The problem is I need A LOT of money to even be prepared to do either. I have no professional signage anywhere! At my front gate, around the mall, outside of the mall, or in my store such as section signs. I can’t afford a printer/ink so all the signs I do have I hand wrote.  I HAD banners outside the mall but someone stole them, clips & all.

I still need to come up with the $$$ for painting,  decor, & shelving. & A lot of other more seriously needed  things.

THIS is the turning point. That fine line between success & utter failure. If I had the above things, itd make a giant difference! But how??!! I tried applying for a loan but can’t prove enough income yet. So, to make it til now, I used credit cards. Now I owe arount $2,000.

BUT my 80+ clothing racks are paid off. I’ve put $$$ into buying stock for the store.

And that’s just the store.

I of course still have this house to remodel. I have some pretty serious issues here too, each carrying a hefty price tag. And Im scared of winter coming, as I hear this winter will be worse than last winter-which we barely survived. We are not eligible for ANY government funded programs at all due to the type of mortgage I have.

And overall I think the BIGGEST Issue is that Im doing all this ALONE. All the store stuff. All the house stuff. The housework, dr appts, etc. My health is being effected & I’m gaining a lot of weight. And I’m just sooo tired. No quality, educated man wants to take all this on. & I am NOT going to  settle for someone less now, that I will regret later.  I already lived that life for 13yrs! Never again!!

I just keep pushing myself one step at a time. I have no idea how this will all work or where I will get the money.

I dont know if I should go buy some poster board & hand write some signs & stick them out by the street NOW- even though it isnt very professional, or just wait & keep trying like I am now until I can afford fancy ones.

Well…. that is just some of the plates Im spinning right now. I gotta get back to laundry!

Oh & if you stumble across this, come find my new store on facebook!

~Clothing Your Whole Hive For LESS!!~

N2 Our Final AUG Weekend

Well, moving from the 1,300sq ft store to the 6,300 sq ft store, was the best move.  I am still running negative, but sales have doubled since the move. Of course, because I am still negative, I need to figure out a way to BOOST views, customers, etc ASAP!!

I already use Facebook, twitter, many others, and even craigs list. I have no money at all for any other advertising. And I am running out of ideas. It will still be awhile before news/newspapers etc are interested in my story.

I also need more racks (& help) etc. But there is no $$$ for any of it. So I am still just hopping around the store on my 1 good leg, over heating, but just keep going.

I am hoping this month will begin our turn around.



I get a kick out of people who think running your own business is easier than working for someone else. I knew how much work Id have to put in before hand because I took classes etc & started online, and gradually stepped up.

If it were easy EVERY one would not do it but succeed! I was already dealing with a full schedule but now am having to work myself so hard for no pay that my body is literally falling apart. It is a race to see which will happen 1st, my success or my final life altering break.

When I started this just a few short months ago, I was healthy & on zero pills. Now I’m on over a 1/2 dozen- for my heart, blood levels, etc. & of course the damage to my right knee, which is causing pain everywhere else due the rest of my body trying to compensate. I also put on stress weight-not from eating;  Im not eating much at all.

The store is coming together. Sales have doubled & are climbing but not as fast as they need to. I can’t even afford AC. 
Thats a race too– if things aren’t high enough before the weather  turns, I won’t have any way to be our personal heat bill. We barely made it through last year & lost 1/2 our plumbing to freezing pipes that I still cant afford to fix.

Also I wont even go into how many other important things I havent gotten to because there is just no.more.time. 

Yesterday, the boys chipped in-my 8yr old changed my sheets&pillow cases, & my 10yr old cut the grass with rotary cutter. (I haven’t checked the grass yet-but it couldnt have been worse than the overgrown mess that was out there.)
While I worked on laundry, cat baths, vacuuming, etc.

Today is another “off day.” We only have 1 appt this afternoon & the rest of the day will be filled with more house work. My kids are in school about 5 hrs today, & then have church tonight. I have to get stuff caught up but Im so exhausted it is affecting everything.

1st Weekend In Bigger Store

I still am considering this our “soft opening”– still working out kinks& have to change hours in 2 weeks when school starts back. Still have pricing, stocking, etc to do.

But hey, I built a 6300+sq ft store. By myself. I just look around & can’t tell you how. …& I can’t explain how this all fit in my HOUSE! LOL!

Anyway, this weekend had its curve balls, but sales were great. If this keeps up, then this was definitely the right move.

I ran all my #s (& my personal finances show it), this was definitely an investment! I litterally even had to roll every coin in our change jar. The guilt from that is tremedous as it was supposed to be for a vacation & even my kids put their change in it. 😦

June was very negative, July a little less, so I’m just praying it keeps getting better- which it looks like it will. But right now, I have no money… actually Im negative money. I can’t afford any of the stuff I really need for the business, & am struggling to find funds to even pay my home utility bill. And the stress has me broken out in hives, I’ve gained about 20lbs, & my heart etc are suffering to the point of medications & possible surgeries.

Most can’t live like this, & I see why so many fail. I am just holding my breathe, waiting to surface. I will NOT let this fail!

1/2 of store(it cant all fit in 1 pic anymore)